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لگتا نہیں ہے دل مرا Lagta Nahin Hai Dil Mera — My Heart Will Not Settle Here

Bahadur Shah Zafar

1775– 1862

Ghazal

Bahadur Shah Zafar was tried by the British after the revolt of 1857, deposed, and shipped to Rangoon to die there. This is five couplets long, and the last of them is about a grave. You do not strictly need the history in order to read the poem, but it is very hard to hear that last couplet without it.

What comes before is quieter than you might expect. A heart with no rooms left in it. Thorns that are asked to be left standing. A caged bird that blames nobody at all. Five couplets ahead, each of them complete on its own.

01  — lagta nahin hai dil mira ujde dayar men Matla · the opening

لگتا نہیں ہے دل مرا اجڑے دیار میں
کس کی بنی ہے عالم ناپائیدار میں

लगता नहीं है दिल मिरा उजड़े दयार में
किस की बनी है आलम-ए-ना-पाएदार में

lagta nahin hai dil mira ujde dayar men
kis ki bani hai alam-e-na-paedar men

My heart will not settle in this ruined country. Who has ever had things go their way in a world that does not last?

Two complaints that do not quite match, and the mismatch is the interest of the couplet. The first is specific and local: this place, ruined. The second is the oldest generality there is: nothing lasts, nobody wins. He moves from his own situation to everyone's inside a single line, and the move looks like consolation while doing nothing to console.

اجڑا دیار ujda dayar
a ruined, emptied land
عالمِ ناپائیدار alam-e-na-paedar
the impermanent world

02  — in hasraton se kah do kahin aur ja basen

ان حسرتوں سے کہہ دو کہیں اور جا بسیں
اتنی جگہ کہاں ہے دل داغدار میں

इन हसरतों से कह दो कहीं और जा बसें
इतनी जगह कहाँ है दिल-ए-दाग़-दार में

in hasraton se kah do kahin aur ja basen
itni jagah kahan hai dil-e-dagh-dar men

Tell these longings to go and live somewhere else. Where is there room in a heart already covered in scars?

He treats the heart as a house and serves notice on his own desires, which is a strange and very concrete thing to do. The reason given is not that wanting things is foolish but that the accommodation is full. The scars are taking up the space hope would need.

حسرت hasrat
longing, unfulfilled desire
دلِ داغ دار dil-e-dagh-dar
a heart covered in scars or burn marks

03  — kanton ko mat nikal chaman se o baghban

کانٹوں کو مت نکال چمن سے او باغباں
یہ بھی گلوں کے ساتھ پلے ہیں بہار میں

काँटों को मत निकाल चमन से ओ बाग़बाँ
ये भी गुलों के साथ पले हैं बहार में

kanton ko mat nikal chaman se o baghban
ye bhi gulon ke saath pale hain bahar men

Do not pull the thorns out of the garden, gardener. These too were raised alongside the flowers, in the same spring.

An argument for the unwanted, made on grounds of seniority rather than beauty. They were here first, or at least they were here at the same time. Written by a man who had been removed from his own country as an inconvenience, it is difficult not to hear who is speaking.

چمن chaman
a garden
باغبان baghban
a gardener

04  — bulbul ko baghban se na sayyad se gila

بلبل کو باغباں سے نہ صیاد سے گلہ
قسمت میں قید لکھی تھی فصل بہار میں

बुलबुल को बाग़बाँ से न सय्याद से गिला
क़िस्मत में क़ैद लिक्खी थी फ़स्ल-ए-बहार में

bulbul ko baghban se na sayyad se gila
qismat men qaid likkhi thi fasl-e-bahar men

The nightingale has no complaint against the gardener, nor against the hunter. Captivity was written into its fate back in the season of spring.

He names the two people who could plausibly be blamed, the one who runs the garden and the one who traps the birds, and clears them both. The cage was in the luck, not in anybody's hands. From a deposed emperor writing under guard, that reads either as genuine resignation or as the only version of the sentence it was safe to write.

بلبل bulbul
the nightingale, the standard lover of the rose
صیاد sayyad
a hunter, a trapper
فصلِ بہار fasl-e-bahar
the season of spring

05  — kitna hai bad-nasib zafar dafn ke liye Maqta · signed by the poet

کتنا ہے بد نصیب ظفرؔ دفن کے لیے
دو گز زمین بھی نہ ملی کوئے یار میں

कितना है बद-नसीब 'ज़फ़र' दफ़्न के लिए
दो गज़ ज़मीन भी न मिली कू-ए-यार में

kitna hai bad-nasib zafar dafn ke liye
do gaz zamin bhi na mili ku-e-yar men

How luckless Zafar is — that for his burial he could not get even two yards of ground in the lane of the beloved.

Two yards is what a grave takes, and asking for it is the smallest request in the poem. He died in Rangoon in 1862, and the British buried him in a grave they took care to leave unmarked, so nobody could come and stand at it. The couplet gets quoted constantly on its own, usually by people who know the ending of the life before they know the rest of the ghazal.

بد نصیب bad-nasib
unlucky, ill-fated
دفن dafn
burial
کوئے یار ku-e-yar
the beloved's lane — and, here, home

Reading it whole

The feeling running underneath this is homelessness, and it works its way down through smaller and smaller spaces. First a country that will not hold him. Then a heart with no room left, so the longings are told to go and live somewhere else. Then a garden that has to make room for its own thorns. And at the end, two yards of ground, which is what a grave takes.

The garden couplet is the gentlest thing in it and the least sentimental. Do not pull the thorns out, he tells the gardener. They came up in the same spring as the flowers and have as much right to be standing there. It is the argument of a man about to be thrown out of his own country, spoken on behalf of the plants nobody wants.

Then the fourth couplet changes the temperature altogether. The caged nightingale has no grievance against the gardener, and none against the hunter either, because captivity was written into its luck back in the season of spring. Coming from a man tried by a foreign power, stripped of a throne and shipped across the sea, it is strange how much it lets everybody off. He takes the blame away from everyone who actually did it and hands the whole business to fate. Resignation, or the only safe way to write it down. The poem does not say which.

And then the couplet everybody knows, usually quoted without the four in front of it. Zafar died in Rangoon in 1862 and the British buried him in a grave they deliberately left unmarked, so that it could not become a place people came to. The poem asks for the smallest imaginable piece of home and reports not getting it.

One honest caveat. Verses of this kind attached themselves to Zafar's name partly because his life made them so quotable, and scholars have long questioned how much of what circulates under his pen name is really his. That does not change what the poem says, though it may well be part of why it survived. Mohammed Rafi sang it in the 1960 film Lal Qila, which is how most listeners first met these lines. Habib Wali Mohammad's reading is quieter, without a film orchestra behind it.

How it rhymes

Every second line closes on the same word — میں , men. That repetition is the radif. The rhyme falling just before it is the qafiya: The -ar sound just before the refrain: dayar, na-paedar, dagh-dar, bahar, ku-e-yar. Hearing the two land together at the close of every sher is most of what makes this form sound the way it does.

Recordings

  • Mohammed Rafi

    From the 1960 film Lal Qila, which is how most listeners first met these lines.

  • Habib Wali Mohammad

    A quieter concert reading, without the film orchestra behind it.

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Text and rights

Devanagari text supplied and checked by a reader who knows the language. The Urdu script and the transliteration follow that reading.

Authorship is traditional rather than documented. A good deal of verse circulates under Zafar's takhallus whose attribution scholars have questioned, and this ghazal is among the pieces sometimes disputed.

Bahadur Shah Zafar died in 1862, so the poem itself is out of copyright everywhere. The translation, the reading of each couplet and the essay around them are original work written for Harf.