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تم اتنا جو مسکرا رہے ہو Tum Itna Jo Muskura Rahe Ho — You Smile So Much

Kaifi Azmi

1919– 2002

Geet

Someone is smiling, and the man watching has noticed something wrong with the smile. The eyes are wet, he points out, while the lips are laughing. He asks what the grief is, what the smile is carrying, what the eyes are showing that the mouth is not. It is the gentlest possible way to tell someone you have caught them lying about being all right.

Kaifi Azmi wrote it for Arth in 1982, and Jagjit Singh both composed and sang it, for a film about a marriage in which the husband has already left, in every way that counts, before the story begins. Four passages ahead, and the fourth one contains the line people quote at funerals and weddings alike.

01  — tum itna jo muskura rahe ho

تم اتنا جو مسکرا رہے ہو
کیا غم ہے جس کو چھپا رہے ہو

तुम इतना जो मुस्कुरा रहे हो
क्या ग़म है जिस को छुपा रहे हो

tum itna jo muskura rahe ho
kya gham hai jisko chhupa rahe ho

You who smile so much, what is the grief that you are hiding?

The first line is framed as praise and functions as evidence. Itna, so much, is the tell: the smile is being done in quantities, which is what smiling looks like when it is work. The second line then names the job description. Chhupa rahe ho: you are hiding something, and the present tense means the hiding is still going on, in front of us, as we watch.

غم gham
grief
چھپانا chhupana
to hide, to conceal

02  — aankhon mein nami hansi labon par

آنکھوں میں نمی ہنسی لبون پر
کیا حال ہے کیا دکھا رہے ہو
کیا غم ہے جس کو چھپا رہے ہو
تم اتنا جو مسکرا رہے ہو

आँखों में नमी हँसी लबों पर
क्या हाल है क्या दिखा रहे हो
क्या ग़म है जिस को छुपा रहे हो
तुम इतना जो मुस्कुरा रहे हो

aankhon mein nami hansi labon par
kya haal hai kya dikha rahe ho
kya gham hai jisko chhupa rahe ho
tum itna jo muskura rahe ho

Wetness in the eyes, laughter on the lips. What is the state of you, what is it that you are showing. What is the grief you are hiding, you who smile so much.

The whole passage is one sentence with the two halves split across the body. The eyes and the lips are giving different testimony, and the line makes them testify in the same breath, which is the whole indictment. Dikha rahe ho turns the smiling into a display, something being shown, and the question is which of the two displays to believe.

نمی nami
moisture, wetness
لب lab
the lip

03  — ban jaenge zeher peete peete

بن جائیں گے زہر پیتے پیتے
یہ اشک جو پیتے جا رہے ہو
جن زخموں کو وقت بھر چلا ہے
تم کیوں انہیں چھیڑے جا رہے ہو
کیا غم ہے جس کو چھپا رہے ہو
تم اتنا جو مسکرا رہے ہو

बन जाएँगे ज़हर पीते पीते
ये अश्क जो पीते जा रहे हो
जिन ज़ख़्मों को वक़्त भर चला है
तुम क्यों उन्हें छेड़े जा रहे हो
क्या ग़म है जिस को छुपा रहे हो
तुम इतना जो मुस्कुरा रहे हो

ban jaenge zeher peete peete
ye ashq jo peete ja rahe ho
jin zakhmom ko waqt bhar chala hai
tum kyon unhe chhedhe ja rahe ho
kya gham hai jisko chhupa rahe ho
tum itna jo muskura rahe ho

Drinking them as you do, these tears will turn to poison in the drinking. And the wounds that time has been healing all along, why do you keep reopening them? What is the grief you are hiding, you who smile so much.

The chemistry of the first couplet is exact: the same act that swallows the grief converts it. Peete peete and peete ja rahe ho give the drinking duration, so the poison is brewed over time, not administered at once. Then the second couplet names the worse habit. Chhedna is to pick at, to tease, to reopen, and the wounds had a doctor, time, who was doing his work. The question tum kyon, why you, is the closest the song comes to anger.

زہر zeher
poison, venom
اشک ashk
a tear
زخم zakhm
a wound

04  — lakeeron ka khel hai muqaddar

لکیروں کا کھیل ہے مقدر
لکیروں سے مات کھا رہے ہو
کیا غم ہے جس کو چھپا رہے ہو
تم اتنا جو مسکرا رہے ہو

लकीरों का खेल है मुक़द्दर
लकीरों से मात खा रहे हो
क्या ग़म है जिस को छुपा रहे हो
तुम इतना जो मुस्कुरा रहे हो

lakeeron ka khel hai muqaddar
lakeeron se maat kha rahe ho
kya gham hai jisko chhupa rahe ho
tum itna jo muskura rahe ho

Fate is a game played with lines. And you are losing, to the lines. What is the grief you are hiding, you who smile so much.

The pun that closes the song. Lakeer is the line in your palm, the line of fate, and also the line of a game, and maat is the word for checkmate and defeat. So the man is losing his life to the lines drawn on his own hand. The poem's last word is that his ruin is scripted on him, and the smile he is wearing is the one move left, and even that move belongs to the game.

لکیر lakeer
a line; the lines of the palm
مقدر muqaddar
fate
مات maat
defeat, checkmate

Reading it whole

The song is an intervention dressed as a compliment. Nobody says the word divorce anywhere in it, and everybody in the film knows what it is about. The technique is to take the smile seriously and find it out: you smile so much, the song begins, as though the smiling itself were the evidence. The poem never accuses. It just measures, and the measurements are devastating.

The second passage does the measuring with a single line. Wetness in the eyes, laughter on the lips. Kya haal hai, kya dikha rahe ho: what is the state of you, what is it that you are showing. The word dikha rahe carries the performance in it, so the question is really asking which of the two faces is the act.

The third passage is the one that made the song famous, and it is a warning with a time limit in it. Keep drinking those tears, it says, and the drinking itself will turn them to poison. Zeher is the word for venom, and the line is doing chemistry: what is swallowed as grief becomes poison by the act of being swallowed. Then the wounds: wounds that time itself has been healing, waqt bhar chala hai, and he asks why the smiling man keeps reopening them. It is the kindest accusation in the language.

The last passage moves the whole thing onto a higher floor. Fate is a game of lines, and you are losing to the lines. The pun is the poem: the lines of the palm, the lines of fate, the game of chess where the loser says maat kha gaya. The man who has lost his wife is losing to the marks on his own hand. The song ends there, with the smile still in place and nothing resolved.

Arth was Mahesh Bhatt's semi-autobiographical telling of his own affair, and Shabana Azmi's performance in it won her a National Award. This song is the one that left the cinema hall. Jagjit Singh recorded it with his usual economy, which is exactly what the poem needs, since the poem is all understatement and would collapse under decoration. The Saregama reissue is the recording everyone knows.

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Devanagari text supplied and checked by a reader who knows the language. The Urdu script and the transliteration follow that reading.

From the 1982 film Arth, composed by Jagjit Singh. The refrain returns between passages in the recording, more often than it is printed here.

Kaifi Azmi died in 2002, so this song is still in copyright. It is quoted here as the subject of Harf's own criticism: the translation, the reading of each passage and the essay around them are original work written for this page. If you hold the rights and would like something changed, tell us on Instagram.