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بات نکلے گی تو پھر دور تلک جائے گی Baat Niklegi To Phir Door Talak Jayegi — Once Word Gets Out, It Will Travel

Kafeel Aazar Amrohvi

1940– living

Nazm

Somebody is going to be left behind, and this poem is a rehearsal of what people will say to her afterwards. Not what she will feel. What they will say. He goes through it in advance, item by item, in the future tense, like a man checking over a room he already knows he will not be in.

Kafeel Aazar Amrohvi called it Andesha, which means apprehension: dread of a thing that has not happened yet. Nine passages ahead, and the ending is already in the first line, waiting.

01  — baat niklegi to phir door talak jayegi

بات نکلے گی تو پھر دور تلک جائے گی
لوگ بے وجہ اداسی کا سبب پوچھیں گے

बात निकलेगी तो फिर दूर तलक जाएगी
लोग बे-वज्ह उदासी का सबब पूछेंगे

baat niklegi to phir door talak jayegi
log be-vajh udasi ka sabab poochhenge

Once word gets out, it will travel a long way. People will ask, for no good reason, what the cause of the sadness is.

Baat is the smallest possible word for it: a matter, a thing said, a something. He never gives it a name here or anywhere else in the poem. And be-vajh, without reason, is aimed at the askers rather than the sadness. They have no business asking. That will not stop them.

بات baat
a matter; a thing said; the smallest word for it
بے وجہ be-vajh
without reason, with no cause to
سبب sabab
the cause of something

02  — ye bhi poochhenge ki tum itni pareshan kyun ho

یہ بھی پوچھیں گے کہ تم اتنی پریشاں کیوں ہو
جگمگاتے ہوئے لمحوں سے گریزاں کیوں ہو

ये भी पूछेंगे कि तुम इतनी परेशाँ क्यूँ हो
जगमगाते हुए लम्हों से गुरेज़ाँ क्यूँ हो

ye bhi poochhenge ki tum itni pareshan kyun ho
jagmagate hue lamhon se gurezan kyun ho

They will ask you this as well: why are you so distressed, and why do you keep away from anything that sparkles?

The second question is the more invasive one, because it is about parties. Gurezan is the word for somebody actively avoiding a thing, so what has been noticed is not her mood but her diary. She has stopped turning up, and people have counted.

پریشاں pareshan
distressed; in its older sense, scattered
گریزاں gurezan
shying away from, keeping clear of

03  — ungliyan utthengi sookhe hue baalon ki taraf

انگلیاں اٹھیں گی سوکھے ہوئے بالوں کی طرف
اک نظر دیکھیں گے گزرے ہوئے سالوں کی طرف

उँगलियाँ उट्ठेंगी सूखे हुए बालों की तरफ़
इक नज़र देखेंगे गुज़रे हुए सालों की तरफ़

ungliyan utthengi sookhe hue baalon ki taraf
ik nazar dekhenge guzre hue saalon ki taraf

Fingers will lift towards your dried-out hair. And eyes will take one quick look back over the years that have gone.

Ungli uthna, for a finger to be raised, is the standard phrase for a public accusation, so the pointing is not idle. Then the second line does the arithmetic everybody in the room is doing silently: they look at the hair, then at how long it has been, and draw the line between the two themselves.

انگلی اٹھنا ungli uthna
for a finger to be raised; to be publicly accused

04  — choodiyon par bhi kai tanz kiye jaenge

چوڑیوں پر بھی کئی طنز کیے جائیں گے
کانپتے ہاتھوں پہ بھی فقرے کسے جائیں گے

चूड़ियों पर भी कई तंज़ किए जाएँगे
काँपते हाथों पे भी फ़िक़रे कसे जाएँगे

choodiyon par bhi kai tanz kiye jaenge
kaanpte haathon pe bhi fiqre kase jaenge

There will be several pointed remarks about your bangles. And jokes made about your shaking hands.

Bangles carry a whole set of meanings in this culture, about marriage and about being cared for, so a remark about them is never only about jewellery. Fiqra kasna is to make a jibe at somebody, and the verb kasna, to tighten, is what you do to a screw. Both lines are in the passive. Nobody is named as the speaker, which is exactly how this sort of talk works.

طنز tanz
sarcasm, a pointed remark
فقرہ کسنا fiqra kasna
to make a jibe at somebody

05  — phir kahenge ki hansi mein bhi khafa hoti hain

پھر کہیں گے کہ ہنسی میں بھی خفا ہوتی ہیں
اب تو روحیؔ کی نمازیں بھی قضا ہوتی ہیں

फिर कहेंगे कि हँसी में भी ख़फ़ा होती हैं
अब तो 'रूही' की नमाज़ें भी क़ज़ा होती हैं

phir kahenge ki hansi mein bhi khafa hoti hain
ab to 'ruhi' ki namazen bhi qaza hoti hain

Then they will say she takes offence even in the middle of laughing. And that these days Ruhi is missing her prayers as well.

The first line is the sharpest piece of watching in the poem. Somebody has observed her laughing and worked out that she is not enjoying it. Then a name arrives, the only one anywhere in the poem, and with it the last thing left to comment on. Qaza is a prayer missed and still owed, so it is a debt as much as a lapse. When the gossip has got as far as her prayers, there is nothing further in.

خفا khafa
displeased, offended
قضا qaza
a prayer missed at its time and still owed

06  — log zalim hain har ik baat ka taana denge

لوگ ظالم ہیں ہر اک بات کا طعنہ دیں گے
باتوں باتوں میں مرا ذکر بھی لے آئیں گے

लोग ज़ालिम हैं हर इक बात का तअना देंगे
बातों बातों में मिरा ज़िक्र भी ले आएँगे

log zalim hain har ik baat ka taana denge
baaton baaton mein mera zikr bhi le aayenge

People are cruel. They will find a reproach in every single thing. And somewhere in the middle of the chatter they will bring my name into it too.

Baaton baaton mein means in the course of ordinary conversation, casually, as though it had just come up. That is the danger being described. Not an interrogation, which anybody could brace for, but his name arriving in the middle of small talk, with no warning and nowhere to look.

طعنہ taana
a reproach, a barbed remark
ذکر zikr
mention of somebody

07  — in ki baaton ka zara sa bhi asar mat lena

ان کی باتوں کا ذرا سا بھی اثر مت لینا
ورنہ چہرے کے تاثر سے سمجھ جائیں گے

इन की बातों का ज़रा सा भी असर मत लेना
वर्ना चेहरे के तअस्सुर से समझ जाएँगे

in ki baaton ka zara sa bhi asar mat lena
varna chehre ke taassur se samajh jaenge

Do not let a single thing they say get through to you. Or they will read the whole of it off your face.

This is where the poem stops predicting and starts giving orders, and the order is impossible. Asar and taassur come from the same root, which puts the feeling and the look on the face one syllable apart. He is asking her not to feel it, because he knows she cannot stop it showing.

اثر asar
effect; the mark a thing leaves on you
تاثر taassur
the impression on a face, an expression

08  — chahe kuchh bhi ho savalaat na karna un se

چاہے کچھ بھی ہو سوالات نہ کرنا ان سے
میرے بارے میں کوئی بات نہ کرنا ان سے

चाहे कुछ भी हो सवालात न करना उन से
मेरे बारे में कोई बात न करना उन से

chahe kuchh bhi ho savalaat na karna un se
mere baare mein koi baat na karna un se

Whatever happens, do not ask them anything. Do not say one word about me to them.

The last instruction and the most expensive one. She is being asked to give up the only two things that would have helped: finding out, and saying his name aloud to somebody. Both lines end on the same two words, un se, to them, so the whole prohibition turns on who is in the room rather than on what is true.

سوالات savalaat
questions, the plural of sawal

09  — baat niklegi to phir door talak jayegi

بات نکلے گی تو پھر دور تلک جائے گی

बात निकलेगी तो फिर दूर तलक जाएगी

baat niklegi to phir door talak jayegi

Once word gets out, it will travel a long way.

The first line again, alone this time, with nothing following it. Coming after eight passages of exactly how far and in whose mouths, it is no longer a warning. It is a description of something already under way, and the poem stops rather than finishes, which is the only honest ending available to it.

Reading it whole

This is a poem about being talked about, written by somebody who will not be in the room to hear it. Almost every line is other people's voices. Why are you so upset. Why do you flinch away from anything cheerful. Look at her hair. Look at those bangles. Look at her hands shaking. Even her prayers are being missed now. Hardly a word of it describes grief directly. All of it describes grief being noticed.

What makes it hard to sit through is how specific the watching is. Dried-out hair. Bangles. Trembling hands. Nobody remarks on those things in a person who is fine. And the detail that hurts most is put in somebody else's mouth: she takes offence even while she is laughing. Somebody has been paying very close attention to arrive at that.

Then the poem starts giving orders, and that is what gives it away. Do not let any of it show on your face. Whatever happens, do not ask them anything. Do not mention me. He has just spent six passages proving that people will work it out regardless, and now he is asking her to hold a line he has already demonstrated cannot be held.

You can read that last instruction as protection, and it is. You can also read it as a man protecting himself, preferring to go unmentioned rather than be discussed, and it is that too. The poem never decides between them, and it leaves you carrying both.

Then the first line comes back by itself, once word gets out, it will travel a long way, and the poem stops. It is the only line that ever repeats, and by the time it returns you know exactly what word he means. Jagjit Singh sings the instructions in the same voice as the prophecies, and in this poem they are the same thing.

Recordings

  • Jagjit Singh

    The recording that made this nazm widely known, issued by Saregama.

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Text and rights

Devanagari text supplied and checked by a reader who knows the language. The Urdu script and the transliteration follow that reading.

The nazm is titled Andesha, apprehension. It is almost always referred to by its first line instead.

Sung versions shorten it, and the order of the middle passages varies between recordings.

Kafeel Aazar Amrohvi is living, so there is no death year to date the text from and it cannot be called public domain. It is quoted here as the subject of Harf's own criticism: the translation, the reading of each passage and the essay around them are original work written for this page. If you hold the rights and would like something changed, tell us on Instagram.